Thursday, 4 August 2016

Walking through the door




Sometimes, the only way to describe an experience is through metaphor. This can be challenging for those of us who haven’t experienced something similar – or perhaps I’m a very literal person and it’s only me that struggles to comprehend – but once understanding comes, it’s like a lightbulb has turned on that can illuminate the soul.

My experience with meditation is like being in a small room: I need to leave the room and move beyond into a beautiful world that I can see through an open window, but it’s a small opening and I can barely fit through. I struggle and struggle, trying to make myself fit, but movement comes ever so gradually. Sometimes I feel like giving up, but the view refreshes my efforts and I always begin anew. At length, I look around the room itself, and I notice a door. It has been there all this time! I leave the window and go to the door – it is unlocked. Easily, with very little struggle or pain, I open the door and walk through.

I am a covenant-keeping woman. I have been baptised by Priesthood authority, entering into a solemn promise with God that I will follow Christ’s example and repent of my sins when I do wrong. I continue to try to be like him, and as I strive on this path, God has covenanted with me that He will help me in my efforts. What efforts do I make? Attendance to church meetings, specifically sacrament meeting, wherein I renew my baptismal covenant by partaking of the sacrament. I pray daily for others, for my family, for myself. I repent of my sins and seek out ways that I can eradicate them from my life. I apply the Atonement of Jesus Christ not only through my sincere repentance, but also through seeking for healing from pains and sorrows that have been inflicted upon me through others’ actions (and even my own). I seek to bless and heal others through my words and deeds. I learn, and I grow, and when I fall, I get up and try again.

But change came gradually. As I struggled to overcome my faults, to heal from past sorrows, to serve and love my fellow humans, I felt like I was continually trying to squeeze through a too-small opening, never quite fitting all the way through. I was optimistic – I felt that I could do this, and that with God’s help I would, but I was missing a vital element in my efforts.

Meditation changed everything for me. I was able to look around, see a better path, and choose it. Like walking through a door, the change I so fervently sought out came simply, easily, and naturally. It took commitment on my part, but all the other elements of my worship became amplified as a result. I was able to access the Atonement in a depth and breadth that I wasn’t even aware existed before. Now, I pray for help and almost immediately I receive an answer – or inspiration that eventually leads me to an answer. I receive help before I've even prayed for it, even. I am not blinded by my emotional baggage and sorrows; issues that would take years to hash out in therapy have taken me weeks or months to discard with the addition of meditation to my daily routine.

“If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.”

I continue to seek out all of the knowledge that will lead me closer to Christ. Kundalini Yoga and Meditation is a vital part of this experience for me. I know it can be the same experience for you – life is beautiful! You can find peace, joy and comfort through all of life’s myriad challenges. Christ calls us to lay our burdens at His feet, and in return we will feel lightened. It is my fervent belief that this meditation technology is an integral part of doing just that.